Plans Change

So, I wrote about me going back to school in a post about a month ago. Plans have changed.

I was going back to school because it was the quickest way for us to make more money. Practical? Maybe. Smart? Maybe. Not really what I wanted to do though to be honest. I can actually LOVE what I do. I love taking care of babies, I love that I'm great at it (and no, I'm not being cocky, I just take what I do very seriously and know that I give the best care that I can give to every single baby I take care of), I love that my schedule can change with our ever-changing lives. (Today I work weekends, but if tomorrow I needed to work during the week, I could. It may take a few months to get my schedule changed, but it's possible. I have flexibility.) I may go back to school later - maybe when Clay is in school and I have a lot of free time, but I'm not ready. I am not willing to sacrifice time with Casey and Clay right now to go back to school. (And money is not everything. We are more than okay financially - what is it about all of us that we always want more??)

Casey however has wanted to be an engineer since I met him. He has sacrificed so much for us - Clay and me. He put school on hold when I was on bed rest for 6 months so he could work full time. He has continued to work full time and continued to put school on hold to help provide for us. The other day we were talking about me going back to school and I just blurted out "I really don't want to go, I would rather you go back. You WANT to go back. You WANT to be an engineer. And I WANT you to do it!" His eyes lit up! That's the thing about Casey - he's selfless. He would have never have said he wanted to go back to school first. He just would have been happy for me that I was going back. Well, I can honestly say that I am so EXCITED he is going to finish school and be an engineer! I want him to love his profession just like I love mine. (Not that he doesn't like Chainwheel, but he has always wanted to be an engineer - even if he couldn't quite put his finger on it.)

So, plans have changed. I am not going back to school and I am at peace about that. I am even more at peace with the fact that Casey will finally get to do what he has always wanted to do! I never want him to have to put things on hold again - we only live one time! (Unless you believe in reincarnation.)