Art

This whole experience - being pregnant and having a child - has taught me more about life than any other experience I have ever had. I feel like I have more knowledge about what life is about now, I understand it. EVERY single day matters. EVERY minute of every day matters. All the moments in between, no matter how small or insignificant, matter. I knew this before being a mom, but I am more cognisant of it now.

I want to remember all the moments I have with my family! One way to do that would be taking thousands of pictures (have that one down), but the most important way is to "be" in the moment. In the past I feel like I may have let too many moments pass without really taking them in, therefore I am unable to recall the memory in detail. I am learning the art of this. And it is an art. This all started in the hospital right before I was about to start pushing.

All of our families were in the room and they told us in about ten minutes we would be ready to push, so, thankfully Casey asked everyone to step out to let us have some time. It was much needed and I never knew how having that time with just Casey would be SO significant. It was the last time that we were going to be just husband and wife - it was the last time we would be a family of 2. I remember every detail of that ten minutes - every word, every tear, every jitter, every fear, every bit of joy we were both feeling, every tick of the clock, every sound I heard outside the door, everything. I remember.

I can honestly say that I have been more aware of everything since that moment. I feel like I started learning how to truly live in that ten minutes, by LIVING in that moment. Instead of looking forward to the next. I would like to think that I have learned the art of living each day to the fullest, truly experiencing each moment. I have taken an active role in my life instead of a passive back seat. I am loving it.