Parasitic Relationship

Clay has taught me so much already. The biggest change I have noticed in myself - others have pointed it out as well - is how open I am with my emotions now. In other words, I am sappy!

I can't hide behind any facade now, everything I am feeling is flowing out of me. This has only happened since I had him. Call it hormones, call it being weepy, or I like to call it what it is...motherhood.

From the very first time he looked at me I knew my world and my life had changed. For the better. I haven't been able to be stoic about anything ever since. Before I had him I was pretty good at being shut down, closed, stoic, and just plain not forthcoming with all the mushy feelings I had - about anything. Don't get me wrong, Casey has always known that I love him more than anything, but I didn't always express it in words. I had all these mushy, sappy feelings before I had Clay, but now they just fall out of my mouth and eyes. (in the form of tears, not words, of course)

He has given me so much and taught me so much in the past 3 weeks and 4 days than I could have ever imagined! We were told by our doctor once that having a child was a "purely parasitic relationship - nothing symbiotic about it." I have to disagree with that now. He gives to me things that I didn't know I needed or wanted. He has changed me, he has made me a better version of myself. I love him for that and for many other reasons as well!